A Letter to My(Senior)Self

Dear Midge,

I know the no matter what I type here, you will read this hearing yourself but in a much more annoying voice. So I apologize. I know that it won’t be great. But I’m writing some things I want you to remember. For starters, you made some great friends this year. KC and Zyzy (although not their real names) might be the most memorable, but there was also the bowling babes and the history crew, not to mention the art gang. I hope you are still friends, if not in contact with them. They made your freshmen year.

Now, secondly, this is a really hard time. I’ve just spent three hours crying while reading and watching the news. DC just put a 7 o’clock curfew into effect. It’s scary, people are rioting and protesting. People are dying. And Black Lives Matter. These are all facts. You can’t even be mad, because right now, it’s justified in your eyes. You watched the video of George Floyd dying. You saw a man die, and that will forever be a fact in your life now. You will always remember that moment. So, when you read this, I hope you have gone to the rallies and the peaceful protests. I hope you signed a petition and you posted it every where you could. Because I can’t live like this right now, knowing what I know, so I’m changing, and so is the world. So you are DIFFERENT NOW, now you are better and you are change and you stand with people. Because no one stands idly by if they dream of better, and I have always dreamt of better.

I hope you made the changes at Longwood that you were hoping to make, both to the school and to yourself. You learned what you were supposed to, but also more than that. You know more about what you want to do, and you have another goal in life. I hope you aren’t a procrastinator anymore, or are at least better at managing it. I hope your public speaking is better, because communication is a world skill. I hope more than anything you can see where you are going next. And, I’ve hoped you’ve grown. You can’t be one place, one thing, one person forever, and as I’ve already stated, you are changed even now. So continue to grow and evolve, into the best you can be.

wow I know that bit was kind of cheesy, but that’s what I’m feeling right now. There is other things I wanted to say, but now they seem small and unimportant. And they probably were, because you won’t even remember this when you read it. But one more thing that I should add, I love you. (trippy this is me talking to myself from the past) but its true and I don’t know if you needed to hear it or if its just a nice reminder, because I know my worth, and I love myself for it. I love what I can do, so I know I’m going to love what you can do in the future.

Goodbye Midge.

(don’t forget to say hi to everyone for me!)